3 years ago

I have debated all day on weather o not to write this, but as you can see I decided too. On this day 3 years ago my life changed forever. Cliche phrase right, but it is true. The day my life changed forever was a day I will never forget. At the end of school I called my dad and told him how bad my day was and he just told me to dress in something comfortable so he could bring me to the hospital when he got off work. I remember not wanting to go but I finally did as I was told because I was really not feeling good. We went to the emergency room and I got a Cat scan done. After that it went pretty fast I was told they found a large mass in my head and they wanted to transfer me to a better hospital. The last thing I remember was the guy in the back of the ambulance with me saying we were there. I finally woke up 3 days later because they had to drain my head of extra brain fluid that built up then they did the surgery. They found a golf size tumor in the back of my head and my CSF tube crushed. The big problem was I lost my vision so quickly after that I did not even realize it was gone right away because it became normal to me. On that day I also found out I have a disease that would make me have to go to the doctor's office regularly for different scans or tests. People tell me all the time that I am strong for not going into a depression or anything worse. I just call it stubbornness on my part. I had the stubbornness to live and live the way I wanted to. I had to start with everything from the beginning like reading, mobility, and many other things. I eventually went to a school that helped me to learn all I needed to learn again. What I have learned from this experience was to live life to its fullest and laugh as often as you can because you never know what may happen tomorrow. With this disease I do have to go see those doctors all the time and maybe eventually doing that will take its toll on me. With the people around that care about me I will continue to be stubborn and never give up. There is a man I have been compared too many times but I never got to meet because he died before I was born. This was my dad's dad who was a drill Sargent in the Vietnam War and also had the disease. I would have loved to meet the man I am compared to a lot with how bull headed I am. I would also like to ask him why did he give up on going to those doctors to help him. I understand in a way but why not wait until his youngest was over 18 and maybe out of the house. I do understand though because the disease I have is known to start hitting a person hard and likely killing them before their sixth decade. I want to tell anyone who is reading this to live your life happy and with as much laughter you can fit into it. When I get a phone call from a friend or even a silly text it makes me smile or even giggle when I needed it. To have those small moments is a wonderful thing. I really chose to write this because I saw a memory on Facebook that was about some family members saying they love me and are thinking of me on that day 3 years ago.