What I desperately wanted when I was younger...

What I desperately wanted when I was younger was nothing that someone could give me right away. I did not want any toy or gift that I would only use a few times and leave it be. I wanted a true family with a wife, husband , and kids that are all full blood related. This is one thing that I will never stop wanting, but now I realize that my family is the way it is and I can not change it. I wanted this because if I wanted to see one person I could no see the other it is sill that way now. This seemed like a reasonable request for a young person, bu I was old hat it would never come to be and so that is what I learned that what I want I can not have.